First day of school and the challenge ahead

Yes! The day has come for me to walk through my new school's doors and begin this new chapter of my life (this is what they look like):



Let the studies begin!!

Well.. kind of,

Actually my classes start on Saturday, but today we had the opening ceremony. I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I was! A bit nervous too, but I am soooo happy to be able to learn! I sound like the biggest nerd on the planet, but i am counting seconds for Saturday to come.

The ceremony lasted for about an hour and the 200 freshmen listened intently to what was said to them. Ok, not really, but hey I did! And I count don't I?
The truth is, most of the students spent their time chatting and yawning and a quite a big number of them stepped out of the hall before the end of the ceremony. I was like sheesh guys, why so enthusiastic!?
I guess it just comes with private schools.. a whole bunch of rich kids who don't really want to be there. They just figured they should do something and their parents thought it best that they study in this particular school. But really they cannot wait to leave the place.

Oh how we value education in our society. It is astonishing.
So today I decided I will be the weirdo in the class, the one who always asks questions and does extra homework. I truly truly intend to make most of my studies.
I'm actually kind of nervous about how it will work out for me. Because I've realized that it is all up to me how much these courses will actually be of value to my life. It is in my hands to make it matter.. this is a rather intense realization.
I mean, discipline has never been something i enjoy. Yes, I like it when things are in order and running smoothly, but i am also insanely spontaneous.

So for me, this whole year is like a massive test.. a challenge. How can I make most of what God has given me?
Ahh.. God give me wisdom and strentgh!

This challenge of making most of my time seems to be expanding to every bit of my life.
Whether it is being a youth leader or doing HIV prevention - with all of these things I am in charge of my schedules. I create the rhythm of my life.

And my time planning doesn´t involve just me.. but i am actually in charge of other people :O! Its like having three GINORMOUS things in your hands to juggle. And that can be pretty scary at times, because.. because big things just are are!!

I keep trying to tell myself that Gods in control, Gods in control, but really at times, I am holding my breath.

God what are you doing in my life !?!

It shall be interesting to see where all of this will go.
I am sure glad He is the one in the driver´s seat :), because the ride is getting wilder ever year.

ive got to run again.. thank you for joining me for another hour of "Hanna´s truly lost it this time", see you again next week ;)