First day of school and the challenge ahead

Yes! The day has come for me to walk through my new school's doors and begin this new chapter of my life (this is what they look like):



Let the studies begin!!

Well.. kind of,

Actually my classes start on Saturday, but today we had the opening ceremony. I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I was! A bit nervous too, but I am soooo happy to be able to learn! I sound like the biggest nerd on the planet, but i am counting seconds for Saturday to come.

The ceremony lasted for about an hour and the 200 freshmen listened intently to what was said to them. Ok, not really, but hey I did! And I count don't I?
The truth is, most of the students spent their time chatting and yawning and a quite a big number of them stepped out of the hall before the end of the ceremony. I was like sheesh guys, why so enthusiastic!?
I guess it just comes with private schools.. a whole bunch of rich kids who don't really want to be there. They just figured they should do something and their parents thought it best that they study in this particular school. But really they cannot wait to leave the place.

Oh how we value education in our society. It is astonishing.
So today I decided I will be the weirdo in the class, the one who always asks questions and does extra homework. I truly truly intend to make most of my studies.
I'm actually kind of nervous about how it will work out for me. Because I've realized that it is all up to me how much these courses will actually be of value to my life. It is in my hands to make it matter.. this is a rather intense realization.
I mean, discipline has never been something i enjoy. Yes, I like it when things are in order and running smoothly, but i am also insanely spontaneous.

So for me, this whole year is like a massive test.. a challenge. How can I make most of what God has given me?
Ahh.. God give me wisdom and strentgh!

This challenge of making most of my time seems to be expanding to every bit of my life.
Whether it is being a youth leader or doing HIV prevention - with all of these things I am in charge of my schedules. I create the rhythm of my life.

And my time planning doesn´t involve just me.. but i am actually in charge of other people :O! Its like having three GINORMOUS things in your hands to juggle. And that can be pretty scary at times, because.. because big things just are are!!

I keep trying to tell myself that Gods in control, Gods in control, but really at times, I am holding my breath.

God what are you doing in my life !?!

It shall be interesting to see where all of this will go.
I am sure glad He is the one in the driver´s seat :), because the ride is getting wilder ever year.

ive got to run again.. thank you for joining me for another hour of "Hanna´s truly lost it this time", see you again next week ;)

its just one week...

.. and i will start school. SCHOOL.. wow that word has so much power in it.
everyone, all together now - schoooooool. did you feel it?
hah, naah.. to be rather honest, im not getting it at all. i have no idea whats really going on or that i should start shopping for supplies - notebooks, pens, a laptop (if you have a spare one- i want it!!). I mean, yes i am excited about it - im anxious to write essays and discuss politics, can you believe it? but at the same time, in one year, it is totally possible to lose your connection to any kind of academical environment. That is kinda what i feel like - i have been doing youth work full on for a year, i dont remember anything about textbooks or eloquent speech, and in a crowd of students who just graduated from high school.. i can imagine numerous situations of just saying things out loud too soon or not getting what everyone else thinks of as elementary. Ah, it will be a challenge and I pray to God that He will remind me to have a sense of humor when it comes to awkward situations. Not that I am a stranger to those..:)
So what have i found out about my classes?
the first shock was when i looked at my timetables and saw that i actually have classes only 4 days a month, because im not attending daily classes so i can work. Yet this doesn´t mean any less studying, because i have to get the same amount of points by the end of the year - it just means i have more independent study and more freedom to arrange my time.
I have to admit, at first i was kinda disappointed, because i was ready for a full on weekly study, but the more i think about it - i just see Gods hand in it.
My life is absolutely crazy and where God is leading me is even more beyond me - whether in youth ministry or the FWR project - i need to be more commited and available to both of these things than I have before.
It doesnt make any sense - last year i didnt have college, but as Im starting university, I am expected to commit more to other things in my life? what??
God works in weird ways.. and i guess the more you grow, the more He can trust you with.
I just hope I am able to develop what He gives me to the fullest.

Guys, i am blown away by everything that is happening in my life. It is just..so... BIG. Yeah, sure i am in real life going through a bunch of massive readjustments, but what is going on in my Spirit is just so much more.
I cant really explain it, because i have no control or record over how or when it happened, but i think i have taken leaps in my relationship with God. Or actually, its not so much that i took the jumps - because i doubt i had too much to do with any of it, but God is speaking to me in ways that He hasn´t before. And im experiencing Him in the depths of who i am in new ways.. and as odd as this may seem - for the first time in my life.. i think im having a relationship with God.
Not that He wasn´t active in my life before, or that i didnt hear his voice or talk to him before.. but its like this whole new meaning has entered that relationship and i have come to see that he actually wants to partner with me, not just be Lord, or King.. but (this is going to sound shocking) more like a Lover, a soul mate.
i have always thought of the whole having-a-relationship-with-God thing as well... just being about gods work in my life. His plan.. me as a servant of the Lord. And it has been good and these things still are developing, and i am still in process, but I have never before thought that I, Hanna, am the other part of a relationship and I have to respond to what He is doing as a person in a real relationship. That maybe God wants me to love Him back.. yes, with all I do, but also with all I am. Yeah, i know it sounds like basic stuff.. but if you look at it on a deeper level - the God of the whole Universe wants and maybe even needs, as a person in a relationship, to see and know that you care about who He is.
Wow.. a God who needs.. it sounds so different.. almost revolutionary. "Needing" is probably not a good word to describe what i want to say - because i dont think God lacks anything. Rather, He yearns. He longs for.
Its crazy when you think about it.. He goes through hell, literally, just to get some response from us.
If any of you have been in a relationship where you have to wait for someone to make a step, when you have made yours and you just have no other option but to sit there - it can be absolute agony. You make yourself vulnerable, put your cards on the table and you just watch as the other person either responds or rejects or..delays even more! You cant manipulate - the response has to be real, authentic and meaningful... either in a good way or a painful way.
And just think how God waits for us to go through our motions, He doesn´t push or make us do anything - the response He is after has to come from our heart.
He passionately loves and is willing to do anything to win us to Himself.
It is the most romantic thing i have ever heard of...
and it truly makes me think of how little i know about love. Or, how little i´ve thought of it.

I would like to discuss this topic for forever, but it is getting rather late and i have work tomorrow.. so i´ll leave you with
TO BE CONTINUED

Party at my house, guys...

... because Im moving out!

yes, you heard it right - in about 2 weeks I will pack my stuff and move into an apartment near the city center.
I am so flippin excited i can barely contain myself!
Not that living here, in such an amazing place as Vääna-Jõesuu, right at the beach, is bad. It´s just time for a new episode in my life.

Kinda freaky actually, because this all became clear just this week. When i got back from Norway, gorgeous norway, i was absolutely confused about what i should do next - where or who would pay for my studies, what would happen with my job and where id be living.

But as I got home, it just so happened that all this stuff suddenly became clear to me. I took a student loan, at the same time 3 of my friends were looking for a roommate at this new gorgeous, renovated (with a sauna!) flat.. for the price of just ~2500 kroons per month.
HECK YES ILL MOVE IN :)!

so since you´re all dying to know what my new place looks like, here are a few shots:






I am just on my knees thankful for this opportunity.. and i know that this will be an amazing year, for all of us in that wikid apartment.

so.. ill leave you now, so you can envy me but more importantly plan a date when you can come visit me at my new home. if you can fit in my room - you are welcome to stay :)

catch ya later!

xx

Norway...

... is one of the most gorgeous places i have ever been to in my life. As soon as I got off the plane on the 24th of July, i was stunned.



I mean, honestly wow - you get to wake up in the morning to THIS? The mountains, the fjords, lakes, forests, trees...

When Brett picked me up at the airport in Kristiansand, i kept my nose against the window and there was no end to the sighs that came out of my mouth.
Guys, all the rumors you've heard about Norway being one of the most beautiful places in the world - they´re true.
So how come I ended up going there?
Well, to be rather honest - I don´t know. I made practically no efforts at all to go on this trip. It was just randomly organized for me by people from Foursquare. All I had to do was get on the plane and go.
The whole story started when I met up with Brett & Tammy Toft (pastors from the Foursquare movement and very good family friends) for lunch in Tallinn around April. I never knew them really well, but I just felt this odd urge to go and talk to them. I wasn´t really sure why or what I was supposed to say, but as soon as church ended that day, i couldn´t wait to see him and Tammy.
That lunch ended up being a long serious conversation about my future where God just did something with me. I left with a renewed spirit, a sense of purpose and clarity about where and why God wanted me to go.
But that was it for me. I never thought that dialogue would continue.
Some time later, I received an email from Brett where he invited me to a youth camp as a group leader. Before i could even start thinking about saying no because of financial difficulties, he said i would not have to worry about money.
I was like wow. Allright, i could do that. I could fly to Norway in the summer - id love to! And to a youth camp? Heck yes!
So he got me in touch with Adam, the camp leader. We e-mailed back and forth and in May, I had a cup of coffee with him (+ a few other guys) as well. And throughout this time, i could just feel something build up in me.. this sense that God will do something really significant for everyone involved with this camp.
Every time I met someone who was taking part in organizing it, I got more and more excited. It was the greatest privilege to be a part of something so amazing.
I was asked whether i could be one of the speakers at camp and not giving it too much thought, i said yes (yeah, i know, BIG surprise right there).
Time flew and suddenly it was time to go. I cannot put to words how glad i was to leave Estonia. The past 6 months of my life have probably been the hardest i have ever experienced, so i was on my knees grateful that God knew me better than i did myself, and He took me away before i could work myself to insanity.

The trip started with 4 days of just resting. I ´ll call it a retreat, because that's what it was. My time off from life, responsibilities and pressure. At the airport in Oslo, i had like 6 hours of waiting to do, so i took some time and talked with God. Just listened if He would speak to me.
He did. But in a way i would not have expected. I was all trying to focus and get my thoughts around what He was doing in me, when i suddenly felt Him ask me a question.
He said:"Hanna.. how are you?"
Me(obviously a bit shocked):"emm.. i´m good. there´s so much going on.. but its all going good - university, youth group, work..".
God:"Hanna.. how are you?"
I took my time before answering to that. Because i could suddenly just see my life from another perspective. I saw myself just working so hard towards something.. i called it divine purpose, but in real life, there was really little room for God.

Its kinda freaky the way you just don´t see yourself sometimes. Weariness hardens the heart and in a way makes you blind.

As i realized this at the airport, i was rather shocked. But i also had know idea what i needed to do about it - so i decided that i will just be right who i am... and allow god to do what he wants to do.

and I ended up being more blessed by the whole trip than i can put to words...
At the Toft´s house - just being able to be around them.. go kayaking, sleeep, do nothing, swim in the lakes, eat cherries, sunbathe... ahh guys i know this sounds unreal - but i think i actually had a holiday!!
After 4 days, i was a different person.
I have never really had like a mentor or anything like that in my life.. but God was so directly expanding my heart through who these people are. And it felt so good. So so good. I just let go of things i had been clutching onto in my life.

Then it was time for camp. I was just so excited to go! I didn´t know anyone besides Adam, but i could not wait to see where God was taking me.
And dude, i just LOVE international camps - there were youth there from Norway, Great Britain, Ireland, USA, Estonia.. all together about 60-70 ppl.
I have to admit i was way nervous the first day... i guess not knowing anyone at all can be intimidating. Hah, but when the group of Estonians arrived (i hadn´t met them before) i just felt like at home and got all excited!
This was my first time at a camp like this as a leader. And honestly - i felt like the biggest idiot, because i had no idea what i was supposed to do! Luckily neither did Kaspar, the other Estonian leader :D (tänks mees!!), so we just had a good laugh the first night, when all these instructions were laid before us and we were like... whatta..

Youth work is all about practice. There is very limited amount of theory, mostly just have to jump into something you´ve never done before and see how it goes. And that is just so much fun - its one of the reasons i love being able to do what i do! by the second night, my focus shifted from what i need to do to what God is doing in the kids. Ahh we had heaps of fun. And it was so amazing to see how God just changed the kids and the leaders!

My highlights - meeting absolutely amazing people, whom I hope i get to be friends with for life; seeing God at work so intensely; having a blast at the Bö waterpark...(yes, i did all the big and scary slides)


and getting so much changed in me in the process.

I am astonished...
There was one more significant thing that happened to me there. I totally fell in love with playing the guitar again - which is a huge deal, because i had kinda shut that bit out of my life. And i realized how much i had underestimated the importance of music as a part of who i am. I am so glad i am finding that bit again.. so you can expect to see me play again soon!!

well.. since its late and im getting tired here is my last thought of the day - if god tells you to jump, do it, because youre in for one amazing ride.

ill try to write again soon!

Love ya!

Hanna, you are such an idiot!

I can be the biggest moron on the planet.
I don't always know why it happens - i don´t even realize when I lose control over what i think, say, do, feel.
But in those moments its as if everything i have ever learned (or thought I have learned) just evaporates and I am left standing there with a blank stare.
I guess it goes without saying that i absolutely despise such occasions. And I wish I could just prevent them from occurring.
Some people call it human nature, others call it bad character or just "being tired". There are plenty of excuses. But the idiotic moments still keep on happening.
"Hanna, you are indeed the biggest idiot" was the last thought on my mind when I fell asleep last night.
I am sorry I cant really fill you in on the situation, but its kinda like this:
have you ever been so stuck on your (ohsoidealistic) view on life that you are completely unable to see the other´s side? Yeah, I bet you have. Or if this doesn´t sound familiar, it might be because you´re in one of "those days" at this very moment.
Anyway, when time finally passes and God is working like a madman trying to get the massive log from your eye, it hits you like nothing else in life can - you realize that you are the most self-centered, brick-headed being who ever walked on the face of the earth.
Even the so called goodness in our lives is often more about us feeling better than anyone else. Because, well it is all about me - I am the main character of the story of my life (side note - read Donald Miller´s books!!). Other people are just co-actors, second best players. Because really, in the long run I matter the most.

It makes me sick to think that this is the way I live my life - through me - my feelings, my wants, needs, dreams, ideas.
And it makes me even more sick to know that so often I do this, because I feel like I have the right to.

For most of my life, I have figured that most of the time I am doing "alright" and then there are the bad days - and thats the time i get to be a jerk.
I have been so flippin naive.
I am who I am no matter what day it is. When I am doing well I am the same person as when I am not.

Or what does it mean to "have a good day"? when everything goes the way I planned it? when nobody interrupts my schedules?

Maybe we need to be idiots to be reminded that we are dust, really. How ever did we end up thinking of ourselves as big and influential?

I guess it is a matter of how you judge yourself.

I don't mean all of this to sound like I am going through some self-pity faze.
Because it´s not about that at all.
It´s more like having GIANT changes on fundamental beliefs I have had about well... everything.
Something in me is changing hardcore - i dont know what it is, but it is messing up my life as I have known it.
It is like I am not who I thought I was, and I don´t quite know yet what do with what Im finding
Or... like having a massive scenery change - you´re used to seeing fields and plains... and suddenly there are mountains. MASSIVE MOUNTAINS!

God is really taking me somewhere i have never been before.

Guys im so sorry if this makes no sense at all :D... I will try to make the next post a better one.

I have to go right now... but i will continue this later on ;).

Tohu va Vohu

hey!

My blog has been rather silent for a while on my part - I have been busy with work stuff. But i will not discuss those issues here (it would take faaar too much space, but if you want to know what went on - call me ;). I am absolutely overjoyed for the comments - thanks guys - its good to know these thoughts make sense to at least some people :)
I also wanted to add - the reason I am writing in English is mostly for my Aussies to be able to understand what I am writing about.

Although... I have to admit - I kinda like it too...the whole English thing makes my thoughts run in every direction!

Now... to the topic of the day.

TOHU VA VOHU

I was reading a brilliant book called "Sex God" by Rob Bell a while ago. And I have to say it is one of the best books I have ever read!
The author talks about sex and sexuality in a completely different light from what I have thought so far. The main point of the book is to explore connections between sexuality and spirituality, but again, because of the limited time I have to write this post, I will discuss these issues another time.

From one point he talks about God creating the world. It says in the first chapter of Genesis -

1In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.

2And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

The bit where it says "the earth was without form, and void", in Hebrew, they use the word Tohu va Vohu.

Tohu-Va-Vohu is a Hebrew nonsense phrase, which has been translated, "wild and waste".

Out of the formlessness, the chaos, the "wild and waste". God created life, light, darkness, plants, animals, and the so-called crown of creation - mankind.

Rob Bells argues an interesting point - creation did not end after the seven days, but in fact, it still goes on today. In us and through us.

I was wondering about that these past weeks - my life being an ongoing creation. I was born to this planet, into a spiritual tohu va vohu - formlessness, chaos - and soon enough, I became a part of it.

But God is making something out of all this mess. He is creating something. I know, because I can sometimes see glimpses of it.
I want my life to become something...to m e a n something.
And I am desperately making efforts for it to be so.

In my search to figure out what direction my life will take next, I have had absolutely ABSURD ideas. For a few days I thought about studying medicine and becoming a doctor in Africa. Then I had ideas about becoming a writer.
Pretty random, I know.

A tohu va vohu, I might even say..

One day I had a crazy idea. I am pretty sure it wasn´t mine. I felt I was looking at the wrong end of things - I was trying to get an image of my future.. but instead I needed to look through my past.
WHAT??
That was my first reaction. But i decided to follow that random thought, because quite honestly.. I felt like I was wasting my time with all of this figuring-things-out thing.

I was flicking through pages in my old diaries, reading about what I used to dream about. What I loved doing, what I was looking for.
There was no big revelation... rather a sense of peace. A chance to really see how the last few years have completely changed who I am. A chance to thank God, to praise Him for bringing me where I am.
I felt His presence with me, like a shade under trees, like a cool summer breeze from the heat of my life.

And then some time later.. I had a very interesting conversation with my sister´s boyfriend, which prompted me to start looking at different Uni courses.
I did. And guess what. I found what I had been looking for.

Yesterday, I took my applications in. The lady who was interviewing me hinted that I can consider myself enrolled.

Where, you ask? :)

Starting in September, I will be studying Internatinal Relations at the university of Audentes (if I really do get in that is).

It is a massive challenge. Work. University. Youth group.
The first year, I will study
This however also means that I cant get a loan to pay for my studies, which is 38 000 kroons a year.
No, i don't know, where I will get the money. But i do know that money is should never be the reason why Im not going to college.


And I do have faith in this God, who takes a massive bunch of tohu va vohu and creates something amazing out of it.

And hello again :)

Wow, I logged in yesterday and suddenly noticed that I have two comments on my last post. I was shocked! I REALLY did not expect anyone to read what I am writing, but I am pleasantly surprised! And... (just in case).. have to ask - did anyone pay you to read and comment? No?

:)

I will now allow you into my head again - here are a few of the millions of thoughts cramped into my way-too-small head:

Most of my time right now goes to figuring out what I will do with my life. And for you to truly understand why I am so obsessed with the topic, I will fill you in on the recent head spinning moments in that area.

I am nearly finished with my gap year - I graduated from high school last spring and took a year off to seek Gods will for my life. Or at least some direction He wants me to take as i was completely clueless.
It took me a few months of blankly staring at the ceiling and straight-forward asking to get an answer.
I love God for knowing me better than I know myself. I am SO grateful (and sometimes SO angry!) to Him for not telling me everything I want to know. The truth is that if I had any clearer idea of His plans - I would mess things up, because I am often convinced that I can make better ones. I am the biggest idiot!

I have always been a fan of universities. I honestly like the studying, the reading, the essays, reports and so on! But my trouble was that I could not find anything here that would interest me. And in Estonia, to survive at a UNI - you have to want to be there.
Anyway, God gave me an answer in the most random of ways. I was at doc inc (young adults group at the pentecostal church) and Ago Lilleorg was speaking. I can hardly remember anything he was speaking about. I just sat there the whole time asking God for some direction in my life. When Ago finished one of my friends asked to be prayed for. He was going to the Philippines as a missionary. When Joel (the friend) got up and stood in front of the room... it was like something slapped me in the face - I realized what i was interested in!
Want to know what it is?
...
....
..... THE WORLD!

What??

Yes, i know, it is indeed very specific. But this is the revelation I had - I am fascinated by global issues - AIDS, world poverty, world politics etc.

So what exactly was I supposed to do with this new found knowledge?

I am not sure. But I´ll tell you what I did - I started searching for Uni courses that would get me closer to the issues. And after a long search - I found Anthropology.
Not exactly what I imagined, i admit, but it sounded SO interesting and I figured that if I get my bachelor´s degree in this field I could continue in international relations or sth.
And for the rest of the year i was sure this was it. This was Gods plan. The only problem - well... I never really asked Him.
I told my parents, they loved the idea. Everything seemed great - but from the beginning I had a sense that maybe it´s not the direction I should be taking.. but hey, if I couldn't point out the source of the problem - i must have imagined it!

I should have my entrance tests in 13 days. And until 2 weeks ago, I was 100% going to be there.
Until God intervened. He blew up my plans. All of them.

Completely out of the blue (in the middle of the night) when I was at a birthday in Rakvere, I knew it was all wrong. My life was going somewhere i didn't want to go. It felt like marrying someone you don't love. I thought I was losing my mind, but I cannot follow something if I don't have Gods peace in my heart. I felt like the biggest idiot - and i got a valid explanation to why i had been going through certain issues throughout the year - i was trying to escape my solid plan! I was looking for windows and doors and rooftops in relationships, wanting other people to give me things I was supposed to get from God.
And the truth is (however scary it sounds!)- He would´ve allowed me to go through with my ideas, because it is my choice to make. But before I plunged off a cliff, He made sure I understand that if I take this road, I will never be fulfilled. I will spend the years looking back wondering what my life would be like if i would´ve had the courage to really go after His plans. Even if it means taking absurd risks.
I cried half of the night as my house of cards burned in front of my eyes.
I left my plans.. leaving the door open for God to move in. I am still waiting for Him, but I haven't felt such a peace and joy for the longest of time. On the outside - i look like an idiot, but I it doesn´t matter to me, because I know that I am where He wants me to be.

I told my parents, expecting a world war III at home, but they smiled and told me to go after my heart.

It sounds mad.. i know it does more than anyone. It sounds like I am emotionally losing it and scared to follow a rational plan. But the truth is - following a sense, or a feeling is WAY scarier, because you get no guarantees. You just have your word to tell other people - no explanations, no alternative plans... nothing.

I have no idea what I will do - my ideas vary from being a doctor in Africa to studying literature to be a teacher here. But I am seeking and waiting, if indeed the massive stop sign was from God... He will have a way for me.


TO finish off this absurdity, I´ll share with you a thought that a dear friend of mine told me when I was battling with the question "WHAT IS THE NEXT RIGHT CHOICE?".
He told me:"Hanna, do not view your life as the sum of "right" and "wrong" choices you have to make..instead look at it as a journey to explore what God has already set in place for you."

Have a great weekend :), I hope I gave you something to think about.

I must be mad...

I have decided to start writing again. Just for the fun of having an opportunity to share my thoughts on life, God and my unexpectedly absurd journey towards Him. I dont know how all this will turn out, but I promise if you read this, you will get a good laugh.

For those of you who dont know me - I am so glad you´re reading this! My name is Hanna, I am a 20-year old Estonian, who likes to talk. I also like to listen, but tend to blurt out whatever comes to my head. I think having a blog will help me think things through before I let them out and I might make more sense writing than speaking.

Wow, what a random thing to write, hey!

What else should you know about me... well, i guess its no surprise by now that I am not entirely normal. I havent yet found out why God made me the way I am, but I reckon He had something good in mind. I sometimes doubt it though, because I bring trouble with me whereever i go.

I currently work at an HIV/AIDS prevention project for schoolkids. We train young volunteers and then send them to speak on different issues - sex, relationships, self-esteem, love, addiction, STD`s - including HIV/AIDS, and etc.
I love young people, I love my job. It is SO much fun, yet such a challenge. I started about a year ago, having just graduated from high school - I had no clue why someone would hire me, but God for some-odd-reason thought I was up for the challenge. Working at this job has completely changed my life and I am so thankful for being able to do something i love for a living.

I am also a youth leader at my church. I dont know how that happened, but this January we (me + 8 other amazing young people) started a new youth group for early teens. I have never been so scared in my life - i have never been responsible for anything this big. I have always been a volunteer here and there, but now being someone others look to - i didnt think i was ready for this. To my surprise,the first year was amazing - we now have a team of commited leaders, and around 15 young people who show up every Sunday.

This thing will grow big, i just know it. Not because of me or the team, but because God has such an amazing future for these kids. He will use all of us, just wait and see :). I just have the privilege of being a part of it all!

Hmm...what else... I am a complete bookworm - I love reading and prefer a good book to TV any time. (hah, i think I just lost all my readers with that sentence! nooo... dont go!)

My goals in life - well... I want to travel the world. I honestly want to go everywhere! Just now, I am chatting with a friend who invited me to go to Hawaii for 5 months... dang, were it up to me - I would be on the next plane !!
One day, I will pack my backpack and just start a journey to wherever the road takes me to.

I think enough has been said and if anyone at all bothered to read this - you know a little more about me :).
A fairly good and honest intro, dont you think?


Well, Have a blessed day, I will write again soon!